Searching for Light

I can’t see, I can’t feel, there is no bottom.

Where am I? How did I get here? I am so lost…

It all happened so sudden, the wave of confusion, the change in frequency.

Have you ever found yourself figuratively standing in the middle of nowhere? One minute you have your shit together and the next minute you’re scrambling to pick up pieces of what was your life just yesterday.

Life is so unpredictable, one thing for sure is that nothing is sure. The drastic change hits you like a ton of bricks.

How do you prepare for the dark hole moment in your life that may or may not come? The sudden loss of your job, debt, getting out of a long-term relationship. That loss of familiarity; the comfort of consistency. Spiraling into the dark hole.

Will there ever be light? Will I stay here forever?

When does the light begin to peak through?

This place of darkness is saddening. Depressing.

light

But there is a light. The place where you can breathe on your own. Your journey to finding it will be different to anyone’s. Sometimes we are placed in difficult situations to open our eyes; to push us in a place of awareness. How do you assess your predicament and make adjustment accordingly?

Start by asking yourself thought-provoking questions:

  1. How did I end up in this situation?
  2. Do I have the ability to make changes?
  3. What is the first step to make that change?
  4. Am I being supported or suppressed in my quest?
  5. What is my end goal ; my interpretation of a successful search?

Life is a journey that was never promised to be easy. Wishing you the courage to keep moving towards your light!

Sincerely, Tee

How well do you do it?

Not “THAT” it, relax lol…

How well do really you take care of your health?

 

womens health

As a working mom, your plate is usually full; before and after work- duty there is mama- duty. Basically you end up changing out of your work clothes around 9pm when your kid is asleep (hopefully).

I know I’m not a health freak but I also didn’t realize how much I was completely neglecting myself until recently. Day 5 of being sick I decided to visit the doctor. I waited 5 days for medical attention for myself, whereas the first sign of illness with my son I go to the emergency room immediately; forget that whole “wait 24- 48 hours with a fever” thing. Don’t mess with my baby’s health! But what about mine?

One thing I did learn by force was that I was unable to take care of my son fully if I am not happy and healthy. This does not mean that parents are not allowed to get ill; however we need to keep in mind that our health and well-being affect theirs. This is a motivating thought to keep in mind when we make decisions about our health and diet.

I usually make joke about my son’s lunch-bag being ‘lit’. Can you imagine he is guaranteed a well-rounded diet (and then some!) everyday while we don’t even bother putting the same effort towards my daily diet half the time.

I watch people I know take medication and continue to smoke, I listen to stories of other persons who refuse to visit the doctor because “they don’t know what they’re doing”.

But what are you doing?

I am just as guilty, but the following things I plan to do to be more vigilant are:

  1. Stop postponing Pap Smears…..ughh
  2. Don’t just buy vitamins for the kids, get yourself some too!
  3. Fix yourself a good breakfast; pack it to go if you don’t have time to eat at home.
  4.  Take time out of your day to do something beneficial for yourself.
  5. Be a friend to another woman; she probably need it.

Happy International Women’s Day to the woman reading this post on 8th March, 2018! 

Sincerely, Tee